Tuesday, February 10, 2009

your letters up, press restart

I've been able to tame the untamable and lull myself to sleep with thoughts of what the next day will bring, who knew it could be so easy... alas, it's not.

in the midst of early morning dream walking... an overwhelming sense of dread washed over me. the perpetual sky turned black and my dream went from soothing; to a saddening twisted nightmare. Tears leaked down my animated cheeks onto the two dimensional road and I stared into a face so familiar, their words dug into me like sharp jagged shards of glass. My body convulsed controllably, and trickling tears turned into streams and a heavy weight settled on my chest.

wake up.
I hate this dream.
wake up.
wake up.

I struggled to breathe and inhaled quickly.

so this is how I'll start my day today... this will be the jumping off point in which everything will eventually go wrong..

as much as I know that the dream, was in fact just a dream, it's become hard to shake the heavy feeling that seems to have lingered behind from the dream state I was in.

and today feels crazy, and today feels wrong.

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